What is Giving Up?

What is giving up............me. What am I giving up.........everything. Why am I giving up.......because they force me to. They force me to give up my opinion so they didn't have to hear an argument. They force me to give up my right to speech because they were to tired to talk. They forced me to give up my happiness, because they found it to much of a difficulty to live with. I hate my dad, hate him, but when my parents divorced I lived with him for four years. I HATE HIM. I spent four years with him miserably, because everybody says it will be easier on everybody but me. Why did I have to give up the right to be comfortable and happy. Now that I'm doing something for myself, everybody wants me to stand down for themselves, but I'm just sick, sick, sick, sick of it. This is for me no one else, why do they think this has anything to do with them. This is for me, so everyone just shut the fuck-up! Ohhh, and that's not all. I'm treated more like a shield then a person. They throw me in front of everything, like I wont mind. In front of my brothers high hormonal inbalance, in front of my dad's asshole behavior, in front of my mom's decision to ignore me, and most of all they expect me to do all the things they don't want to do. And none, none of them will do anything for me, even after all the shit I do for them, I am forced to do all my activities alone. When do I get a vacation?